If only you know.

2010-04-28T15:53:00.002+08:00

The worst thing I have done after finishing school is having this full time job.

Well, i didnt blame the company. Just that the pressure, perfection, demanding, peers, puntuality, comitment, restriction, all this plays a part for me to really just walk off. But the only things holding me back is just that money issues.

Everytime when I comfort to peple regarding this, I feel as though they look at me like I'm complaining. But they don't know what I'm going through in work everyday. Im mentally exhausted. I even have a slight breakdown which luckily I'm able to pull myself together.

Mentally exhausted till my mind went completely blank. By the time I reach home, i will sleep. the next day, is another day, another call, another sick in the mind thing.

My decision is up. I dun have the heart to work there.
But just that I respect the company and my team leader and the money issue.

Walking away.

2010-01-14T23:13:00.001+08:00

My heart beat faster, faster than ever yesterday.

To see him again, his bike, the way he went down his bike,

his hair after wearing his helmet, his eye contact,

his smile, his greeting,

the handshake, the talking,

his teasing, his phisilophy of life....

all of it....

Never did it change,

Never....

After weeks, I came to an understanding of what you are actually doing.

For now, i am praying just for you.

Praying that you will one day eventually find what your hearts really wants because your happiness is mine too. Insyaallah.

Lets not talk about us, lets not talk about love,

lets not talk about misses who more, lets not talk about forgeting each other,

lets not talk about closeness.

For now, I just want you to share your happiness,

I just want you to be happy

because seeing you finding your true happiness in life

is all I that i ever pray of since the first day

i met and knew you.

2010-01-13T15:24:00.003+08:00

I came across this arrticle and it really sent chills down to my spine..

Diriwayatkan dari Anas ra. :

Nabi Muhammad Saw pernah bersabda, “ketika manusia berbaring di dalam kuburnya dan para sahabatnya pulang, ia mendengar langkah kaki mereka."

"Dua malaikat datang kepadanya, menyuruhnya duduk dan bertanya kepadanya; apa yang pernah kau katakan tentang Muhammad Saw ? ia akan berkata: aku bersaksi bahwa Ia adalah hamba Allah dan Rasul-Nya. Kemudian akan dikatakan padanya, “lihatlah tempatmu di neraka, Allah telah menukarnya dengan dengan sebuah tempat di surga karena itu”. Kemudian Nabi Muhammad Saw menambahkan, “orang itu akan melihat kedua tempat itu.

Tetapi orang kafir atau munafik akan berkata kepada dua malaikat itu, “aku tidak tahu, tetapi aku mengatakan apa yang dikatakan orang-orang!”. Akan dikatakan kepadanya, “kau tidak tahu tetapi kau tidak mengambil petunjuk (dengan mengikuti Al Quran)."

"Kemudian ia akan dipukuli dengan palu besi di antara dua telinga nya, ia akan menjerit dan jeritannya terdengar oleh apa pun yang ada di dekatnya, kecuali manusia dan jin.”

..........

2010-01-12T15:13:00.004+08:00

"Tak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis, andai diri tak sehebat Sulaiman. Mengapa mengharapkan teman setampan Yusof, jika kasih tak setulus Zulaikha. Tak perlu mengharapkan teman seteguh Ibrahim, andai diri tak sekuat Siti Hajar. Dan mengapa didambakan teman hidup nak Siti Khadijah, kalau diri tak sempurna Rasullullah S.A.W."

Quoted from Sadiqul Facebook cited for Quran..

I found it very meaningful and whowould have thought that he going to post this.. haha..=)

2010-01-11T18:18:00.000+08:00

A quick get-away from Friday till Monday. Far away from Singapore is what I needed badly at this moment. So a quick trip to JB to be near my mom is the best solutions I can think of.

My new house at JB.(Perling apartment.)

I was really shocked when I see my JB house. LOL. I like. Sapa2 nak tenangkn fikiran sila datang ke rumah-ku ye. A quick snap I took using my handphone.

There's still a lot of pictures to be taken but didn't manage to.

Next time yaw.

Staying in Johor is a good experience. I really love it. It's like a totally get-away from Singapore the cheapest way. LOL. I didn't think too much and I was able to sleep peacefully. However yes at times, i still do think. But for now just pray.

And the hardest part was actually going back home to Singapore. The thought of leaving my mum alone in JB was so damn sad. =(..

2010-01-06T13:53:00.003+08:00

I want so much to buy a religious book "Qadha dan Qadar".
But couldn't find one till now.

Qadha dan Qadar.

(Some reading that I have read; qouted from passage.)

Salah satunya dari rukun iman itu adalah iman kepada qadha dan qadar. Dengan demikian , bahwa mempercayai qadha dan qadar itu merupakan hati kita. Kita harus yakin dengan sepenuh hati bahwa segala sesuatu yang terjadi pada diri kita, baik yang menyenangkan maupun yang tidak menyenangkan adalah atas kehendak Allah.

Sebagai orang beriman, kita harus rela menerima segala ketentuan Allah atas diri kita. Di dalam sebuah hadits qudsi Allah berfirman yang artinya:
"Siapa yang tidak ridha dengan qadha-Ku dan qadar-Ku dan tidak sabar terhadap bencana-Ku yang aku timpakan atasnya, maka hendaklah mencari Tuhan selain Aku. (H.R.Tabrani)"

Takdir Allah merupakan iradah (kehendak) Allah. Oleh sebab itu takdir tidak selalu sesuai dengan keinginan kita. Tatkala takdir atas diri kita sesuai dengan keinginan kita, hendaklah kita beresyukur karena hal itu merupakan nikmat yang diberikan Allah kepada kita.

Ketika takdir yang kita alami tidak menyenangkan atau merupakan musibah, maka hendaklah kita terima dengan sabar dan ikhlas. Kita harus yakin, bahwa di balik musibah itu ada hikmah yang terkadang kita belum mengetahuinya.
Allah Maha Mengetahui atas apa yang diperbuatnya.

Orang yang beriman kepada qadha dan qadar, apabila mendapat keberuntungan, maka ia akan bersyukur, karena keberuntungan itu merupakan nikmat Allah yang harus disyukuri. Sebaliknya apabila terkena musibah maka ia akan sabar, karena hal tersebut merupakan ujian.

Artinya:”dan apa saja nikmat yang ada pada kamu, maka dari Allah( datangnya), dan bila ditimpa oleh kemudratan, maka hanya kepada-Nya lah kamu meminta pertolongan. ”
( QS. An-Nahl ayat 53).

.............................

2010-01-05T15:24:00.003+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me

There are days, Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so closeAnd having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what I was tryin to

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But i'm doin it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i'm alone

Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.............

AfTteR eVeRy DarkNeSs TheRe'S a LiGhT,

& AfTeR eVeRy sToRm e SkY beCoMes BriGhT...

so DoeS eVeRy HeaRTbReaK....

2009-12-25T00:59:00.006+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

Be strong, live long,

Always be true to yourself.

Rights wrongs it doesn't matters,

I'm praying for your health...

Be strong, keep it real,

I know that your strong,

Hold your head up high,

You have got all that you need.

I want to see a smile on your face;

I am in your corner till the end....

2009-12-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

Today I was suppose to work from 10am-10pm.

I woke up early in the morning and just to find myself going back to bed again and woke up approximately around 12pm.

I seriously don't have the mood to go work, the thinking of 10am-10pm just made me go crazy!and so there's my $25 was burn just like that just because I have to take a MC for just one day. So lazily with no mood, I just went to Greengride with slacks, sleeveless and no makeup and found out that all clinics was closed due to Christmas Eve. Sigh.

So from Jelapang all the way to Bangkit to see the doc. Reasons of MC, menstrual cramp. =) Total charged $25. 2 medicines was given. 1 painkiller and 1 Sunpepcin to prevent gastic.

Random: The doctor was quite a good looking guy. hahahaha

So After the visit to the doctor, I walked aimlessly around bangkit and noticed that there are a lot of difference made this past 6 months. From the color of the buildings, to the staircase, to the doors all changed. Gosh, it really made me realized how badly I miss living in Bangkit.
My friends, sorroundings, environments, zhenghua parks.
This is all holds a big memories for me.
My hometown, Bukit Panjang.
(",)

I went back to my house. Spend hours editing my blogskins. I know I'm not good at it but seriously I tried my utmost best to complete everything.
Nad called and Lepakz session again at the usual spots.
TODAY missing of
Nadz, Jaz, Elfie.

And yes before I forgot,
yesterday arguement still continues....
:(

P/S: Working on Christmas 10am-10pm.

2009-12-23T23:35:00.001+08:00

Didn't went to work. I requested for an off today because I have certain matters to look upon and do before this saturday. When to Jurong Point and purchase something for someone which I never bought for myself before.

Hope the present is to her liking. =)

After that I got a called from Recruit Express that I landed a Job as a receptionist on about 3 day contract. So I just take the job to gain experience as a Receptionist. Went down to JTC Cummit and signed the contract and hailed down a taxi to go to Surbonated Court to accompany Elfie.

Well, waited like hours and hours alone over there.

So I took some pictures of myself.

(Vain,vain,vain...)

Hehehehehe

Another one more thing that catch my attention and made a great impact on me. There's a lot of dramas from both the chinese and malay family. I was a bit thrown over with the attitude that they all have. Sigh. Never seen a real life drama mama in front of my own eyes.

I watched the drama-oh-mama and waited till 6pm. I was a little pissed off with him because he kept giving me this short answers and raise his voice even when I asked him with a nice tone. Well it is understandable that he was stressed but at least saying sorry for his behavior was seriously all that I need to hear frome his mouth.

So after that, we board the MRT to Bugis. I was not in the mood because I was tired and I admit I throw cold behavior back to him. Just want hime to feel what I felt. So no mood to walk in Bugis and no mood to eat. Luckily Nad called Elfie up and asked to hang out at the usal place. Thanks. That is what I need to cool myself down. My true friends!

So after eating we hailed a taxi and went to BB. Take his bike and meet up session with

Nad, Nazrul, Jaz

at the usual spots~

Play cards as usual~

Laughters as usual~

Tiff as usual~

Smile as usual~

Jokes and plans as usual~

and just as I thought things was going so Fine,

here it goes again another arguement between me and him,

and yes the story continues............................

2009-12-19T02:19:00.009+08:00

Goodbye 19th...Big Hello to being 20 years old.

Being age of 19, I've been through a lot.

1. Having thought I found the love of my life, but it didn't last.
2. Teaching me the true value of having true friends.
3. Being able to say STOP, when you know you can no longer tolerate a relationship.
4. Having to shift from Singapore to JB.
5. To take a big risk by knowing someone who I'm clearly not suppose to.
6. Stressing more in Money rather than schools.
7. More sin.
8. More lies.
9. Getting to know things that hurts a lot.
10. Problems, problems and more problems.

SUMMARY: 2009 and 19 is not a good year and age for me.
But discovering true friends. Is worth this very year.
Love u all central perks deep deepz!

Hoping that being 20 is more worth it.
Looking forward for the most big changes that have yet to come.
I know that's life.

2009-09-21T03:01:00.000+08:00

Wishing my dearest Families, Friends and Readers a

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. (",)

2009-07-31T11:46:00.002+08:00

Buang Sayang, Telan Pahit.

Ok I'm talking about my Blogspot over here. I've not been updating any blog entries for the past few weeks (maybe even for more than 1 month). LOL

.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Things changed in life for me.

I wasn't sure what to do and choose.

Sometimes I even wonder if i ever can fight this battlefield of love.

I'm too young, maybe I'm not strong enough like you ever have think.

I want guidance in life.

I felt ashamed standing next to you.

I felt inferior.

And deep down I hope there's someone who willing.

Amin.

2009-07-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I tahu dah lame I tak update kn kn kn. LOL.

Almost 1 month past and a lot of things have changed.

Where shall I start?

Life have been complicated lately and I am very happy at least I have my Gfs that I can easily talk to about my problems that I have been facing and they have been supportive even since I officially became S-I-N-G-L-E. LoL.

Love life srew to the max but look on the bright side, I manage to lose weight without any effort. hahaha...

Schools life isn't doing any better too, rushing for time to complete FYP and upcoming UT's coming this week.

Life in JB practically is ok because now, I do once in a while come back to stay at my dad house. So it's easy for me.

Mood now is actually sad over something.

I really really hope that my Galfriends will be there this tuesday.

Plz.

I mean Nad, Nadz and Ayu.

Can?

I'm really down, down, down....

2009-07-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

Went to National Musuem with Elfi and Nad.
We met the Nadz, Ayu, Naz over there.

Things went perfectly fine at first.
Pics will be uploaded Soon!
But dunno why.....
it sux at the end...

It was raining heavily and only to find myself being left alone outside Niational Musuem.
furthermore the HP uat perangai...
Low batt at this kind of moment.

Haiz...& I can't believe that person left me alone!
& obviously wouldn't dare to go back JB alone.
Takut seh.

Luckily, with my smart brain, called my step dad to pick me up at dad place.

& the best part yet to come...

I saw Khai again...
=)But he look rather strange..fierce..tired...
I Only manage to exchange smile and wave at him..

So ya...again2 kite terserempak lagi...macam best gitu!
LOL.

2009-06-17T16:29:00.002+08:00

Life in JB is okay for me.

Adapting to live in JB was not as hard i would think.

I guess when once i entered JB, i don't need to think about my personal problem.

I felt peace that I never felt before.

Just some issues like school that I think about.

People can't call, can't msg, can't bother me.

However, now, I have a huge problem.

I dont even know what to do.

2009-06-10T16:30:00.002+08:00

It's over between me & him.

& im mean totally over.

Yes I was the one who keep insisting and initiating.

While his the one who keep asking and begging.

Yes..i'm being selfish.

But all at least to whoever who say I being such a bitch and selfish. I'm going to say this right up to your face....

"Aku berani dengan membuat keputusan. Akulah yang tentukan kebahagiaan hidup aku dan jalan hidup aku."

2009-06-08T02:22:00.003+08:00

Somebody says that my blog

"Sentiase Berhabuk"

LOL.

Reasons for not updating:

Nothing interesting happened.

Busy, busy, busy.

Malas, malas, malas.

So...only when theres great event happening, i will update.

That will be on the 12th, 13th, 14th June! Going off to ease my MIND!!

Till then.

2009-05-24T23:00:00.001+08:00

.....

Sorry for the lack of updates.

I have been really really really busy with things that happening around me.

Busy cleaning the house, packing my stuffs, putting aside clothes and things that I won't use anymore.

Counting down to the days left for me before my life being thrown down just like that.

Disappointed, a yet biggest sacrifice I have to make.

End of this month a big BYE2!

Gals...No farewell party for me??

& for TODAY, well it had been quiet.

My two best friend didn't called or msg me abt the plans ahead.

LOL.

(konfem kn besok?)

I didn't even know like the confirm situation and all. I guess I just have to follow with the flow tomorrow.

Watever will happened, happens.

But thankfully Nadz dearest did give me a beep later around midnight while I'm burning midnight oil just to study for tomorow UTs.

FYI, I'm struggling a bit here and there!

2009-05-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

....

Today was so funny!

It's been so long since I have a hard laugh and it thanks to you,

Nad Dearest.

Our sillyness.

2009-05-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

....

I thought it's going to be end of the next month.

However, much to what I know it's going to be sooner than what I expected of.

I do not know whether I should be happy? cry? slamming my books?

showing an attitude face to them? ran away from everyone?

All the above?

Whatever my decision is, all I know the above actions is just not me.

Bad news will be told to my closest ones soon.

When the time is fine.

Beefore anything I would just like to apologise.

I don't want to spoil the plans that we have planned.

But I have no choice.

I have to.

Just wish that I could stop the time.

2009-05-14T11:45:00.001+08:00

.....

My nightmare came true.

It was said and done.

Yes, I am going to shift house.

Well, I know u peeps might say "it's still singapore wat?"

Well, the bad news is that it is not Singapore.

I'm am going to miss every single one.

Yes!!! I felt as though people around me are so damn eager to look foward to this new plans ahead. People said I'm not being understanding about their situation.

But are you people me being understanding about my situation?!

Do you think it's going to be easy for me to live my ass traveling alone back and forth to your

"new home"?

I guess not!

I'm going to say once and for all,

"You lost your elder child, & soon you going to lose me too"

I always doubt that I am a selfish person but now today this every minute I will tell it to your face

"I am selfish!!!"

2009-05-13T14:57:00.000+08:00

....

I don't care.

I want to go out today.

Fcuked up day for me today.

2009-05-12T10:31:00.003+08:00

......

I know it's has been a long time since i updated my blog again.

I have been busy with schools, friends, families.

A lot of things had happen and of course there's a lot of overdue pics to upload.

Marina Barrage to Sakura to Karoake to Bowling.

LOL

But now, I'm just going to upload the most recent activities that is outingz with love ones to CDANS bowling on the 9th May 2009.

WOW...wow..Wow..

Three gorgeous ladies.

(Ayu, Fara, Nad)

Three Beautiful Ladies, Forever.

(Fara, Nad, Nadz)

Friends.

(nadz, fara, nad, hawa, ayu, busan)

Thorns among the roses.

(Fara, Ayu, Nad, Jazz)

& Lastly, I really do not know who is this little cute child that I took a picture with.

So JAzz, Nadz...who's child is this?

hehe..

Will update Soon!!

2009-05-07T10:09:00.003+08:00

......

I have my own self break of not schooling for 1 week due to some reasons.

What did i do during this past one week:

Thurs: Marina Barrage with the Gals & Guys!

Fri: ----

Sat: Went to Grandma house at Yishun. Later late at night went to Marine Lagoon @ ECP.

Sun: Went to search laptop @ SimLim.

Mon: Bought a Laptop @ Chinatown with the help of the man. Later at night Lepakz with GFs.

Tues: Went to Nadz to fetch her and head to Nad house till night. Mission was done but confusing.

Wed: FYP in the morning. Job interview Ngee Ann City at 430pm with GFs and Karoake sessionz with, Gfs and Bfs.

Pics will be uploaded soon once I got it from Nad. =)

To: Princess Azie I think yesterday i saw you right outside IT loan. But you didn't saw me.

Maybe im too short for you to notice me. LOL

2009-05-04T02:41:00.001+08:00

....

Ok i'm not going abandon my blogspot!!!

N i doubt friends do continue to wait for my udpate?? LOL

Guess what??

I'm back because I manage to buy a new lappy with the help

from the man.

Phewt!

After what we went through and only closest frens noes.

I decided to buy it in white color because so sad no more RED!

Baru nak feeling2 sexy! Geram seh! Haha...

Since I very the malas to take pics of my laptop, i just take some from the internet la ok?

Ok it's WHITE!

So now i have to feeling2 pure instead of sexy??!

lol..ok i know it's lame!

2009-04-27T10:17:00.003+08:00

......

Im in school now,

I really I can't really stop worrying about how I'm going to purchase a new lappy

because my previous lappy died on me recently.

My third year is so critical right now.

Without a lappy for one day, I would really be on the losing end.

I just need someone who have a credit card.

Sape seh??!!!

Anyone?

Die! Die!

How??

2009-04-26T04:31:00.000+08:00

My lappy is down at the moment.

Will be back soon.

Hopefully......

2009-04-21T01:50:00.000+08:00

It's been long since I updated.

First of all, to start on a happier note, schools reopens on 20th April 2009.
I was fortunate to see some familiar faces, cool classmates and also Facilitators who taught me before except for PR&M module.

Schools ended super duper fast.I like however, I have to fast in school because I don't have enough time to have my own lunch at my own pace.
Pathetic.
But this can be my free diet plan.

Secondly, I am really not doing well in relationship wise now.
No, we did not end up in another huge argument like before.
Yup, thankfully, we did not argue that much. His behaving this past few days.
His behaving really.

But there's a huge sense of fear deep in my heart which I seriously doubting and I keep denying.

No, I didn't fall for another guy.
No, I didn't guilty.
No, I didn't feel regret at all.
No, I didn't intend to leave him.
No, I didn't lost hope on him.
No, I didn't hate him.
No, I do love him.
No, I do miss him.

But;
Yes, I couldn't..............

P/S: Don't ever try to finish of that line, I bet you it is not the right one.

2009-04-18T03:50:00.001+08:00

....

Too much anger, jealousy will lead you losing me anytime sooner.

Too much chance, patience will lead me in giving up to this.
Too much pain and suffering will lead our relationship nowhere.

Things won't go back to the way it was after this.
I'm not going to sit around and do nothing again.Even if I'm back together again with you,I'm going to make sure you know what trust and faith is all about.

It's raining now. I'm loving the weather now. I couldn't sleep at all and luckily this weather made me feel as in I'm not alone.

Ynow like I'm really down right now and it rained as if it felt that I'm feeling down that's why it rained to accompany me too.
Ok..it made sense right?
It does. Ok.

Tomorrow will be a better day perhaps.
Rain + Light = Rainbows???

2009-04-17T01:30:00.001+08:00

....

Today is such a B-S day for me.

Aku dah malas nak layan ni semua.
Period.

2009-04-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

....
(Part1)

An event today will make it clear to you that everything in your life is transient -- nothing can last forever. Permanence just doesn't exist -- even the tallest mountains are slowly crumbling down.
So you have to stop thinking that what you have right now is going to last forever.
Remind yourself that the only thing you can count on is change.
Rather than try to preserve what you love right now, just enjoy it.
Value it and treat it respectfully instead of trying to keep it exactly the way you want it to be.

Does this Smell Trouble Coming My Way?

(Part 2)

When to Zoo today with Dearest GF's and Friend and some anak2 sape punya entah.
Hehehe.
Shall upload pics very Soon!

(NAD please upload to me through friendster? TYVM!)

2009-04-16T01:01:00.006+08:00

.....

~I couldn't follow my family for my late grandad funeral because of certain reasons that got to do with my passport and I can't explain it because I think I will be misunderstood. So NO explanation to be done here.

Disappointing, my family haven't got back from JB.
You guys must be thinking that i'm jumping up and down since I can have the whole entire house for my own good.
But hell NO.

Yeah since they are gone, I did do the whole chores in the house at my own pace since I don't like to be force when I'm doing something.
(Like I have to be ikhlas and all. hahaha)

I did cook for my own lunch. No dinner. Watching TV without having any argument with siblings over the remote is so GOOD.

However, I'm left alone and I'm getting worried by then.
I mean, I can't reach my sis, HP flat. My bro neither answer my call nor reply my SMS.
The rest of the members using Ppd so there's chop2 no connection there.

I'm worried.

Lastly, I meet up with dearest NAD!
Catch ups was done!
I already missing my dearest GF's
Tomorrow lepakz at your house again, NAD?

2009-04-15T03:46:00.002+08:00

After meeting my dearest bf today, I was left alone at my house because I can't go to Johor with my family. I was ALONE and I can't sleep. Basically, I was scared.

Thus Late in the morning, I met my friend, Fadel, out of boredom.
Surprisingly, he came down.
Biaserla ada transportation.

A lot of catch ups was done with him for hours under my block.

Lastly, to my dearest GF, meet me up soon.
Friday can?

2009-04-11T03:20:00.001+08:00

....

Today I was crashed.
I was blamed, accused and cursed by someone who is an elder and I respected, that is my father.

"Did i deserve all this to be thrown at me?"

My Grandad(father side) is at the Johor hospital now.
He was in a critical condition and was admitted there.

Can I look at him tomorrow?
Every time when I'm faced with death or someone who is in a critical condition it kept me think the worst.

I can't stop crying, I felt helpless and breathless.

Thinking of 'Death', does makes me scare.
However thinking of 'time that is left' makes me even more scare.

I'm going to JB tomorrow.
Not sure when I'm coming back.

Bye.

2009-04-10T03:04:00.001+08:00

Labour Day was celebrated by visiting my Grandma at Yishun.

(Miza I lupe nak msg lar. I was at yishun today. :(...)

Upon reaching there, I was happy.
I just don't know why.
It feels as though reuniting again with everyone.
Seeing the smile on my Nenek & Atuk faces was indeed a pleasure for me.

My Atuk always feed me well.
Atuk kept asking me to eat.
But luckily not as much as in the past maybe because he did notice that I put on weight.
LOL

The best part is that I got to see my little cousins whom I didn't get to see for a long time.
I took their pictures the most because they are such a natural talent for taking pics.
Maybe because everytime I met them I will ask them to take picz with me. LOL

The Siblings

(missing elder bro, Indra.)

The Sister, Nabilah.

Cheeky Iwan (twins)

Mentel Ifan (twins)

Beautiful, talented Ifa.
She just turning 2 years old.

The other Cousin. Beautiful Mahdia Marsya.

My ever fav picz for today.
;)

2009-04-09T02:51:00.000+08:00

(credits to N.A.D)
....

Today I went out with my dearest GF!! Nadzira, Nadiah, and Ayu!

I was reluctant to go at first due to the weather and mood.
But changed my mind since Nadz seems to be diasappointed.
But to look on the bright side, I really do had a great time with them.

Firstly, we went for a karaoke session at Cash Studio.
Secondly, we went for dinner at Far East and met Baqir, Alyias, & entah sape...
We left quickly right after that I headed to Esplanade just because Jaz told us that there will be fireworks at the Singapore Flyers.

Banyak nye fireworks.
pun tkde except for the lights there.
Tsk. hehe.

But the saddest part is that my dearest Ayu got caught littering their ciggrates butts. =(

$300+$300=$600.
wow.

2009-04-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

Finally today I managed to wake up early just to head to school to submit a form to OSC.
Just imagine going to school, A-L-O-N-E!

Upon reaching, I saw students wearing RP graduation uniforms and I was smiling to myself.
Thinking, when it will be my turn? Another 1 year for me!!

Not to forget!! -> Woodlands is so damn hot even in the morning.
(If you reading this Acitz: Can u stand the heat there??)
Sigh..

2009-04-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

Didn't slept the night before because I was talking with Miza on the phone till morning 5am.
Luckily she called because at the same time I was complaining to my GFs that I was bored and she was there to accompany me due to my insomnia.

We did have a lot of Juicy Stuffs to talk about.
Never ending topics to talk about huh Miza?
*Macam paham lar ko!

Therefore due to not having enough sleep, I woke up very late for the day and forgotten my plans to head to school to settle some stuff.

I will postpone it tomorrow then and meeting him.
Gosh I miss him.

2009-04-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

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I'm very excited for today post because coincidentally I met again my two guys friends whom I never seen for a very long long time.

This two friend of my is none other than
BaQir (JDL) and Nizam (TWPS).

And BaQir is Nadz friend and Nizam happened to be Baqir friend.
What a SMALL world indeed.

As usual we 4 girls, Nadz, Ayu, Nad and myself with 3 guys Baqir, Nizam, Iswandy, headed to our usual Lepak place at BP.

I was indeed bored to death because these a barrier between us girls and guys.
Cam tk kenal gitu. Padahal2. hehe

But as time goes on we gradually have a bit of laughters and fun here and there.

And Lastly, my favorite pic of the Night is........
with Nad and Baqir.
His never ending Rockstar Trademark
*rolling my eyes.

2009-04-05T14:04:00.005+08:00

...

It rained today.

& yes, I L-O-V-E the rain.

I don't care if it spoils my day out plan with him today.

I just enjoy it by sitting at home, drinking a cup of hot chocolate and watch some DVD with my love ones.

P/s:To remind ya again Only when it rains.

.....

Seeing your smile, wash my pain away.

2009-04-04T19:01:00.003+08:00

.........

It didn't even last for 4 hours today.

&

yet I had been misunderstood again
by my words and actions.

2009-04-01T03:31:00.000+08:00

Today 1st April 2009 marked as the
"Happy Fool Day"

& several of people tried to play prank on me which I think was pretty much hilarious to talk about and to say so called tak menjadi...

;-)

So far on my entire life, I only really been taken in fool on April Fool Day by my dearest friend, Nadzira Rabu!

I remembered it was on the year 2003 when I was in Sec 2.
I was rushing to school because I woke up late and I didn't want to be considered as the late comers for that day.

Upon reaching my school, I received a SMS from her saying that,

"she angry with me for talking behind her back, saying bad stuff about
her...blah blah...blah...(I forgot)"

and being the usual "kanchong" girl, i didn't scroll down the message entirely and I quickly reply her like mati2 defending myself.

She then asked me to read the message carefully till the end and there I realised I had been fooled by this noty little imp! LOL.
Nice one.

&
For those who failed to fool me,
Just have to wait till next year.

2009-03-30T03:19:00.000+08:00

So much had happened this past few days.

Planned heading to Vivo to relax and enjoy ourselves was a great one.
Relaxing was awesome.
Food was nice.
Movie was Supperb!!!
& late night conffession was indeed truly reflective.
Although I wanna say that today we do have fun but I know deep down all each of us have experienced some a little bit of sadness today.

We are always together for each other regardless of anything.
When everything seems right or wrong.
We will always be there.
Truly Best Friend.
(More pics in friendster)

After the late night talks and confession at the usual place. We headed home and as I was in the taxi I can't help thinking and feeling that it seems different.
I felt weird, sad, angry, sympathy.
Everything was juggled up together.

It left me confused.

2009-03-26T16:27:00.006+08:00

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Last minute cancel of plan with two of my friends Miza and Devi.

I was looking forward for today. Unfortunately things didn't went my way.
It was first the money problem.

Then my plans with Devi which I'm the one who initiated at 9am was cancel by me again because of my splitting headache that i suffered due to insomnia.

A huge event happened yesterday night, and I can't stop praying to GOD to show her the light of path and show her the way. Giving her strength to go on and make her stop.
It then hit me so hard, one whole night I didn't pray anything for myself but I pray for them.

Although deep down I know all this years life has been unfair to me. I didn't deserve to have all this mishap to thrust at me and especially my mom.

But I know there are others who in a more worse situation than me. So I don't want anything for myself, I just want everything to be alright for them. I would do anything.
& I mean "Anything."
................................................................................................

Isn't she the cutest?

2009-03-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

I'm scared..................

2009-03-24T16:58:00.007+08:00

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A friend of mine post a quiz in her log and I tried to give it a try. I didn't believe it will be accurate but after the result.

Without any doubts, this is the most accurate quiz I have taken!

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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

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(Hell true! kn nad? kn nadz? lol)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

....
(OMG really true)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
(This is so so true)

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

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(this is sadly, shockingly but really i have to admit, it is true..deep down i do behave that way..)
(dlm diam2)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

.....
(Freakishly true and true)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

.....
(How did they know?)

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

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(Seriously i admit i'm afraid of failure, i don't even see that i'm capable of being a leader and i have not even started! So true!!)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

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(OMFG this is so true 5/5)

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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(Seriously i am unpredictable and my mood changes real fast. One moment i can curse you all and at another moment I ca smile and laugh my ass off.)
(True, true, true, true..nothing but the truth..yeah!)

No harm but do give it a try.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-03-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

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I came across this video and it's definitely without any doubt had touched my heart and moved my heart.
It teaches me the meaning of love and friendship.

To my beloved families, love, Gfs, friends and everyone.
Spread the love.

"Love knows no limit and true friendship last a lifetime"

Christian The Lion

P/S: If you interested in konwing more about "Christian The Lion" here's the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DU6AjvibF50&feature=related.

If love and friendship is important in your life share this video with your friends.

2009-03-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday NADZIRA!

Both pic that I made for you is dedicated especially for you.
Hope ya like it plus the surprise too!

I love you Nadz!
Not forgetting you Nad!

Thanks for being there for me yesterday.

MSN

To acitz: Glad having the chance talking to you again after so long of MIA.

2009-03-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

I went to ECP today ro give my mind a rest after so much that have happened yesterday and I apologized to those who are affected by his attitude.

I'm sorry.

To my beloved GFs and Friends thanks for being there.
At least your jokes and laughter made me smile even though I felt not to.

2009-03-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

Today's the BBQ surprise.

After the hectic plan I really hope it will work out for ya.

After the tears that I cry. I smudge all my makeup.

=(

2009-03-16T16:05:00.002+08:00

Time flies so fast. It's the time of the month again.
=)

Busy day tomorrow.
Going to do some grocery.
Going to prepare a special dish made from us for you.

Can't wait and we going to make this a very happening thing for you.

2009-03-16T04:36:00.001+08:00

Surprise surprise surprise coming your way.

I just love surprise!

2009-03-14T03:51:00.001+08:00

It is our 1st year Anniversary today.

I really have an awesome yesterday thanks to you.

Plan was to ride cable car to enjoy the beautiful scenery.

Give my sweetheart his present in the ride because I bought only 1 present for him.
So I was caught by surprise that he bought me 6 present which include Valentine Day present. (He can't give it to me on Valentine Day due to some uncertain reasons.)

He was obviously loving it. You can just see his eyes sparkling when he see his present.
A Ripcurl Wallet bought at Pacific Plaza.
Thank God he like it because he is such a petty guy when it comes to his things.

Then ride stops.
Search for a comfortable seats and he gave me my presents.

Aww. I am deeply touched by him.
=)

The most touching part he bought the perfume that I really want all this while.
1. Escada Sentiment
2. Salvotone Ferragamo Shine
3. 1 whole set of Elizerbeth Aurden Red Door
4. Body Shop Bath Set.
(I think he bought me all this maybe I smell??!)
LOL..

And Lastly!!
Here comes the part where I cried....

He bought me the handphone which I've been dying for.
Of course it isn't real branded one. But its the one that I been aiming for when I went to Marsiling to look for a hp replacement.

Sungguh ku happy skali!!Hehe
After the dramatic emotional scene it was then Getaway for 3 hours.

After the getaway we headed to Cathy to watch 3D movie "The Bloody Valentine".
Well since Nad says Cathay movie best kn....so we give it a try there.
Not bad.

After the awesome movie we headed to my home because I was really exhausted by then.

6 hours of accompany me to sleep because my parents are out and because I just watch a ghost story the day before. Pheww...

To you:

"I look into your eyes

And this is when
I say "Thank You"
For teaching me to love again."
Happy 1 Year Annivesary

2009-03-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

Okay…you girls can label me as a “blur sotong” girl for what I care.
LOL

As much to say, yes, I admit and declare it, “I’m such a dummy when it comes to IT.”

Latest routine starting off today, I have wake up at 6.30am and head to my dad house. Sent my little brother to religious class and wait till it ends. Then head back home and sent him to school again.

Every day. WOW.

2009-03-11T01:01:00.003+08:00

Damn...

My Tag Board is under maintenance now.

Because repeatedly I did the same mistake accidentally, I lost the code and I'm trying to very hard to find it back.

2009-03-10T03:16:00.000+08:00

The gazing throughout the rain, thinking, and waiting for answers was a vast, huge descent and letdown for me.

I didn’t receive any light that day.

It just left me in cold instead.

2009-03-08T01:49:00.001+08:00

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Mark today as a Shopping Day.
&
It's a bell curve shape today.

Now, I'm in need of my 2 best friends dosage of love.
It's been so Long since the three of us meet up and do some catch ups.
I'm sure there's lot for me to tell.

But couldn't find the perfect time.

Lastly, when everything starts to get better, it's always a small little things that bring it down again.

2009-03-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

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I slept at 4am yesterday and unexpectedly found myself easily waking up at 8am to go to school. My purpose to go to school today was having my Final-Year-Project Meeting with our advisor.

After considering Alan expectation ad Arts Bytes expectation of our proposal, I felt a sudden chill through my spine. Furthermore, he told us that the leader has an advantages and also disadvantages in managing the team well.
(It obviously added another pressure in me. Tsk!)

It’s neither Hurray nor Boohoo for me.

Plus, my very the classic hp, 3310, that I have been using since my last hp spoilt, has been making me feel frustrated. It is beginning to have mood swing like the owner.
To cut it short, that hp has seriously causing me having a HBP!

So I decided to head down to Marsiling with love and test out out some hp over there and there I caught an eye on a nice piece of phone that I pretty like.

It’s a China Phone but with a touch screen.

Well, considering my not so fortunate, not so wealthy background and always cash strap, I really don’t mind having a China phone or maybe a cheapo phone to act as a replacement for my classic 3310 despite it being made in China.
Hehehehe.

Well, that my new wishlist. Anyone care enough to buy it for me.. LOL.

P/S: Nad...Sorry forget to msg you...hp uat hal..hehe...

2009-03-06T15:16:00.002+08:00

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First of all,
time past really hasty and actually I can’t wait for school to reopen because I can’t stand doing nothing at home and the day by day repeated routine that I have.

Going out with my friends is a predicament for me because I’m always cash strap.
Going out without the luxury of having money in your wallet is a killer notion every day.

Other than staying at home now I have to make repeated trip to Yishun to pay a visit for Grandma with my mom.

And I assume I have to be energetically doing work because of the stubborn fats that I gain staying at home doing nothing.

Last but not least,
I think for now I have to give a serious thought about something.
Things around us changed and we repeatedly encounter the same problem over and over again. I don’t feel I’m able to stand the heat anymore and perhaps I won’t be indecisive to make the final decision.

2009-03-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

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Let’s initiate off by saying the whole lot plans turned out hay-wire, today.
Gosh.

A new plan after another was abandon last minute due to some problems that happened.
I was supposed to make a reservation today but I could not make it in time.

But later than, I received a good new which they asked me to come down to the place after 7.30pm before 9pm.

However, yet again, an unexpected predicament made me revoke out my plan again at the very last minute.

Ok.

I hate today.
Period.

2009-03-01T04:07:00.000+08:00

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Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you.

2009-02-27T03:25:00.004+08:00

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I discern that I've not been updating.

Well, it just that my life doesn't seem to be thrilled enough for me to note down one in my post.

On my daily basis, I've been dead to the world only around 4am and I will be waking up at 7am only to find myself sound asleep again from 9am till 4pm.

Then with zero much to do I will gaze at TV till at night.

Despondently truthfully, this is my latest routine.

Miserably, I can't even remember when the last time I had an appropriate meal or appropriate get away from home. It is because everyone seems to be busy with their life.On the other hand, being close up with my mom is meaningful at times. Every now and then I feel depressing and repentant when I summon up the time when I was rebel to her. I just look forward to redeem myself.

I’m sorry MOM.

I hope I can be what she wants me to be.

I love you MOM more than ever.

I just realize that there's not much photo taken with my mom and me.

Sad.

2009-02-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

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Well, today my family and I went to visit my Grandma house after so long.

We sat, we talked,we joked, we shared all kind of story. But the one that still fresh and lingering on my mind till now is about the spooky story regarding a person using an outside of the world thing to protect themselves from harm.
"Black Magic"

Lastly, I may not have the mood to update frequently because I rarely use the internet.
So better miss me.

Gtg. Buhbye.

2009-02-13T00:59:00.006+08:00

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Finally at 1am, I'm done with the editing that I made in my blog.

Well, it took me merely 2 hours plus because as you all know I'm not that literate in editing codes for blogs but for now I'm proud of myself because I have accomplished, creating a new templates that I never done with the assistance of anyone before.

I will be bored stiffed for the next two weeks.

I premeditated to occupy my free time by doing several FYP research. However I don't even have any idea of where to start. Basically I'm doubting my ability to complete my FYP task because in the first place I don't even know what FYP is all about. Tsk tsk.

Well if my precious Plan A doesn't occurs, I really necessitate someone who be bothered enough to amuse me for the next two weeks?

2009-02-12T02:32:00.003+08:00

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Oh great!
I stumbled upon a MV called "What Hurts the Most".
Yes, it's the new song that had been playing on my blog. My readers out there, the authentic singer and their very intense MV will move yours heart, move mountains and everything.
Please don't hesitate to have a tissue next to you when you watched this.

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What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

.....

Noticed that the beginning when she says

"It's not true...You did this to him.. Say you hate him... Liar!!!"

It is about the fact that he left because of her father.
I think that the guy and her father got into a fight and she is packing to run away with her boyfriend only to realize that the guy was dead.

Plus I think the throwing up scene; she is definitely not pregnant though. Trust me, when you find out that the man you love is dead, getting sick is the least of it.

Very intense indeed.

Why in the end she ran to the incident scene and finally say that she "see him too?"

Because int the middle of the MV...

Guy: Whats wrong...? Is it your dad?
Girl: What do you see in the future?
Guy: ....What do you see?
Girl: ....I’m serious.....
Guy: U.....
Kissed intimately....
Guy: What do you see?
She ran away without answering it.

.....

So here is the underlying message grabbed every opportunity to appreciate your loves one because you will never know when they are gone or when you have the chance of meeting them again. Tell them how much you love them and how they make a differences in your life and how they make you feel that they are your other half.

Perfect opportunity.
Valentines Day coming right up.
So here's the perfect time.

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Last but not least to highlight to the parents...
Please...sometimes do have faith and trust in your daughter love life choice. What meant to be is meant to be. You can’t throw or force love into a person. So have faith and just go with the flow .

2009-02-09T10:05:00.001+08:00

...

Today's the day.
Wish me all the best.

Thanks for the rest who wish me good luck.
Love u guys.

2009-02-03T03:04:00.002+08:00

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Yesterday I had a marvelous time with my GFs whom I had not been meeting up lately.
Plan was planned by Nadz; Karaoke sessions at Cash studio.

Initial plan was to meet up Nad at Lido at 4pm. While I meet Nadz in the bus around 3pm. However as usual, Nadz was late again.
Ur Forgiven Tsk tsk. *Rolling my eye. LOL
Thus 3pm changes to 4pm.

So being the usual vain me, I took some pictures while I have a lot of time to kill. *wink

Reached Lido and headed our way to Cash Studio and booked at 430pm till 730pm.

I definately had much great time from beloved GFs and for sure had a lot of laughter and catch up with them.

We definately sang our hearts out, dance our way through and camwhored over and over again.
Here's are some of the pictures we took.

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Definately worth my time & precious more.

Not forgetting I'm craving for more Lepakz sessions with you Gals before I maybe begin to start busy.
&
last but not least

Please try to make it on Friday!

2009-02-02T02:28:00.000+08:00

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I wanna go Greece.

I don't know why.
Of all the places in the world why did I always wanna go to Greece.

A lot of who know my dreams always ask me the question "WHY?"

This are the reasons why...

I just LOVE EVERYTHING about Greece!!

I will go there Someday Somehow....

2009-02-01T04:04:00.000+08:00

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Isn't she Lovely?
My oh my!
I love my little niece!

Nur Izzah Ellyana!!
.......

P/S: Im wondering when will her hair start growing?? LOL.

5 months & still NO progress!

Meet ups session with the girls! Tomorrow!

2009-02-01T01:19:00.006+08:00

I am like so over reacting when I received a very GOOD news today!

An unknown number called me today and I answered it. To my joy, I received a call from Singapore Zoological.
(Obviously, I didn't get through this through the attachment.This is through outside.)

I am shortlisted to come for an interview there. I was so happy upon the good news that I thought I would not get this opportunity till I forget to ask them which post I was shortlisted because I applied 4 different post.

1. Ticketing Staff
2. Operating Assistant Part Time
3. Receptionist Part Time
4. Play Crew

Alhamdulilah!

My Mom was obviously happy of me. But told her not to be over happy because I still have not confirm yet to be selected. I know that some of you may think this is not a big deal but it is to me after what I have gone through this past few months.

Wish me all the best and I really hope I will be selected because I really need help with financial issues now.

Insya-Allah..

2009-01-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

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.......

Well SORRY for the Long Hiatus!

Before the school holidays, I manage to sent my resume through the Attachment Program organized by my Diploma. Plus, I also managed to sent through outside too. Because if I didn't get through the first, I may have another chance to get through the other.
Vice-Versa.

However received a Bad News from Singapore Zoological before the schools ends.

Weng Yew told me that because of the recession period Singapore Zoological reduced the amount of attachment students intake. Thus, I may not get the chance to attach there. I was obviously disheartened upon hearing that. Furthermore he advise me to take up the management MacDonald program instead. Hell no! I'm not going to go there even though whatever he say can benefit me. LOL. I'm really through with F&B industry.

Therefore, I told him "Nah, I think I stand firm to my stand. I'm not intereseted in F&B. Sorry."

& there goes my opprtunity.
Waving Goodbye.

P/S: I really hope and believe I still have the chance of getting a job at Singapore Zoological.

2009-01-25T13:03:00.001+08:00

...

I have been falling since since Tuesday and i lost total weight of 2 kg.

I can't even breathe.

Sometimes I even wonder if I can't breathe in one day....

2009-01-20T09:15:00.004+08:00

..............

My cat killed my hamster who just gave birth recently to a new born babies.

& Stupid SPCA 24hrs hotline.

2009-01-15T01:45:00.004+08:00

Cutting it OFF!

My hair ends sucks a lot. Frizzy! Split end!
I felt very2 uncomfortable with it.
Mind you!

So I decided to cut it off.
My going to be long hair kena cut again.

Well, nvm, my hair will grow sooner.
It will grow Very fast compared to others although my hair condition sucks.

& today was a pretty rough day for me.

I recontact with someone again and he unintentionally reminded me about my past. My past that I can't recalled of it.
& I think it sure happened.

He reminded me about everything which I chose not to recall back.
This thoughts has been bugging me.
What kind of person I am?
I'm not sure.

I just let you people decide. Period

2009-01-13T20:30:00.002+08:00

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Today is School of Hospitality Day.

Yana & Faizal back out last minute. So went with couples of my friends. =)

The SOH program, turn out to be a So-So event. Had a share of laughter about the way Monisha presented the new I.G SOH. Plus thank you so much for like putting my big big face on the slide during my attachment program for GEMS at Jurong Singapore Discovery Center. I was laughing at others pictures without realizing mine was like so big in the center.
*Damn

I was amazaed by my friend achievement. She won the most courtesy award and I was like
"Eh you courtesy meh??!"
We was laughing our ass off when she went up and took her prize.

FangWen a.k.a Danz

Took some random pictures.
Fara so vain that's why.

When the sun began to set, we headed back to home. Great accompanied by Jaja.
It's been So Long...

2009-01-12T23:39:00.005+08:00

...Missing a lot of my Lepaks gals...

Well, my life have been so much better.
I don't care what others says about Me, Us, We, You, They, Them.
They, you, them can judge me any way you wanna judge.
But who cares.

Now, I just wanna care about me me me.

Just for once.
I put myself first.
I'll be focusing on me,
starting from NOW.

...

2009-01-12T00:24:00.007+08:00

I keep singing this song ever since Sat!

It's a nice one! Really!

So this is how it goes:

"I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You nan dareun sarameun sirheo niga animyeon sirheo I want nobody nobody nobody nobody"

Well something happened to my eyes ard 9am, it's super damn swollen and F-ugly!!
LOL

Okay to look on the bright side. After applying Eye drop, it slowly take it time to cure. After a lot of rest till 4pm, the big swollen F-ugly eye was quite okay.

Went to Marsiling in the afternoon and bought some stuffs there!

On the bus.
Close up so have to shades to hide the swollen eye!

I like this Pic.
Near marsiling busstop beside Masjid An'nur.

Was bored waiting for the bus.
Nearly 20 mins!
Reached home around 9 plus!

My Niece. So cute
She like to take pictures too Like......
ME!!
(",)

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Ok shall update you with more and more pics!!

SOON!

2009-01-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

.....

A little glimpse on my RP Open house 2009!
Shall upload more Pics once every Pictures are sent to me!

Stay tune.

~ Loves

2009-01-09T23:11:00.003+08:00

If there's a camel up the hills.

I can't stop laughing while watching this video. The starting of the video wasn't that funny to me.
But the ending part cannot tahan sei!!!

Enjoyz!

2009-01-08T09:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 25th Birthday to my SIS!!

I have a very very unexpected encounter today.

I was walking back home as usual with my friends.
Suddenly there is this malay guy (year 1 i tink) walking beside me and talk some random stuff about girls which I can't hear properly.
But the bad part that i did is i just happily entertain him.
I jus say like "oh really. Rabak nak ppm tu uat mcm gitu?"
He was happily and happily talking until when he look at me and STOP.

He was damn blushing la, and he kept saying sorry because he thought i'm his friend.
Padahal kawan2 die tgh terkekek kat blkg. hehehe. Malunye.

Den out of the sudden i burst into laughter with my friends while he walked away from me.

P/S: Well he got to know my name. =)

2009-01-07T23:48:00.003+08:00

Memories!

I found this pictuuresss while browsing some memory card that I found in my drawer!

During my secondary times.
People: ZaRa! my 5 years of classmates
Mr Solehan! My 3 years class counsellor. The best you ppl can ever have!
Mr SOLEHAN ASMORE!
I still remember his Full name! Wow!

Venue: Downtown East Chalet
Year: 2006 during end of sec 5 when Nad went to Canada for 1 month. (forgot which year)

But I didn't stay long there. We went to Escape. Mr Solehan treat! WOW! After that 7.30 bbq!
But I didn't stay long there. I decided to meet Maman at Changi Beach. Overnight there with him and some other people(pakcik, kakak, abang). That's the most daring thing I guess I did. & didn't tell anyone untill now. How to tell? Nad was oversea in Canada at that period of time. LOL.

But I lost contact with him & late 2007 I heard his brother passed away due to motorbike accident. How sad!

Ironically my ex knew this guy. LOL.
Small world such a small world.

Well pictures do bring back memories!

2009-01-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the late updates about my major event that happen in my family!

Selamat Hari Pertunangan Nirma Wati & Django.

03.01.09

It's a very busy weekday for me..I know it kinda late to post this entry...but who cares...I was kinda pissed of...little bro spill choc drink to my white kurung. End up have to wear this because this the only kurung that fits me. The rest all too short. Well I've grown!

But I guess I did manage to carry it off. hehe.

Happy engagement SIS. Dua tahun lak tu.

She's preety! very preettyyy indeed!

With my beloved Nenek with Atuk Missing
& my ever preety, young, vogue MOM!

Cool I got 2 MOM & 2 DAD
Closest Auntie & Uncle

Sisters LOVE wif MOM.
Kakak ku semua sungguh lawah.
Like MOM like Daughter kate kn!!

Bekal abang iparku families.
Gosh all of them look alike!
Sscarry!

My SweettZ Sis.
Blood Sis.

Jeng jeng jeng!!

N Lastly.....all i can say is
1st and 2nd are done!
3rd and 4th more to go!

If you know what I mean!

Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat dan semoga berbahagia selalu kepada kakak ku, Nirma, & bekal abang iparku, Django!

2009-01-05T11:35:00.004+08:00

RP OPEN HOUSE

Jan 10 RP Open House
Venue: Republic Polytechnic
Time: 10am-6pm.

I just found out that my uniform for the Ambassador of my school, Republic Polytechnic - School of Hospitalism- Diploma Customer Relationship Service Management, is RP blazer. =(

Kene pki RP blazer??

All my other friends get to wear uniform from various resort hotel- The Banyan Tree, Catering Services. But me got to wear RP blazer.

=(

But on the other hand. I look good in blazer. haha. Well confident katekn. haha.

Will update soon about my SIS engagement.

2008-12-31T15:46:00.004+08:00

~8 more hours to go!

Happy New Year to all my love ones!
May you enjoy your day today.
Have Fun!

Happy New Year!

~Hasta la vista 2008!

Welcome 2009!

2008-12-29T01:42:00.006+08:00

New year celebrations anyone?

Well what I'm looking forward for this year new year celebrations is to just chill with my love ones. Like just people that we love and care.
Furthermore, I'm in a Big No-No type of feeling for a grand counting down celebration this year.
I could imagine how hard it is to go back home on new year days' if I were to celebrate it outside.Confirm jam and stuff like that.. Leceh to the max.

Transportation?? Anyone willing to fetch me home? I don't think so....

Well for sure I'm not going to celebrate at home like last year. I wanna have something different this year but still relax celebration in a way.
*boggling my mind now

P/s: Nad shall we celebrate it at your house?? Shall we?? *Pity face

2008-12-28T02:06:00.003+08:00

2:06AM

Through thick and thin,
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we are suppose to give up
My problems are yours, and yours are mine

2008-12-27T01:54:00.003+08:00

The power of Media; the internet. Guess what after a day of my entry about this so called unfortunate experiences about the Police Force. There is an article on the Straits Times about the same issues about what I post. Well could big purely coincidence.

But a big time Coincidence I must say...

....................

Yesterday I tagged along with dearest Nadz and Dilla to Toh Guan to get her phone fixed and went for L-E-P-A-K-Z session with dearest GFz.
Somewhere out there.
Had a lot of fun though despite the chaotic argument that happened the day before. Had some girls talk and revealing our MOST embarrassing moment which I think I don't dare to share it here. (orang tertentu je leh tahu kn kn! hehe)

For now let me just say "Let the pictures do its talking"

.LepakzSessionAgainSoon.

2008-12-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

Here's a post which I think is not going to be agree by much. But who cares, i'm just posting it because this really happened to me.

Christmas, understandable people go party to celebrate even spent their time chilling somewhere. But this ignorant and inconsiderate Indian youths maybe young adult (no offenses, not being a racist here) chose to spend their free time chilling under my void deck at 12am-2am. Just imagine, with them having too much liquor, got high and wasted, resulted in a lot of noises, shouting, laughing, cursing.

To me it doesn't matter much but to my family who have to work the following day can't go to sleep. At least have some consideration to keep their high, complicated voices in a minimum volume.

That's the first thing that i'm unhappy about but that's not the bottom line. Ynow I chose to call my so called neighborhood police (not going to state which area but ppl who know me should know which I'm refering to) to check on them because I thought that the neighborhood police would come to my rescue; trusted them. I thought they would asked this ignorant Indian adults to like go somewhere else. However I was wronged.

I waited like 15mins for them to reach my block. ComeOn! (even a robbery would have run away very far by this 15mins)
Upon reaching to my block, they (man& lady) went out of their comfort zone (car), walked like maner nye macho, to the place where this Indian adults sitting and chatting loudly. Not even for 1 minute the police walked away just like that.

Wow just imagine they took about 10-15 mins then upon reaching just like that.
(A huge dissapointment!! Because I was so ready to laugh at this ignorant civilians!! *sob)
Furthermore, the great part is after the police went off, the noises is still there. Makin teruk. Damn!
Fu**er untill 2am ynow! Like no point trusting the police to keep our neighbourhood safe and sound. Like real! No wonder this past few months tak nampak pun police petrol. Ape entah dorang buat..?

BUAT BODOH..hehe

"The mission of the Singapore Police Force is to uphold the law, maintain order and keep the peace in the Republic of Singapore."

Betul ke??

I let u people decide...nyeyeyehehe

2008-12-24T15:56:00.014+08:00

Well I just watch this "Make it Happen" movie online ( http://www.watch-movies.net/movies/make_it_happen/ ), and I bet ya you too gonna ENJOY this movie.
This movie is for anyone who love dance and it might be about dance and if that is not your thang, the underlying message is to just follow your dreams and make them happen, what ever they may be, or what ever it takes.
Simply irresistible. I gave it a 5/5 movie and I'm never wrong about this kind of thang!

"Make it Happen"
Below is some glimpse of what you gonna see. (Trailer)

& I also posting up some dance move that I like in this show!

M-asculine but yet F-eminine!

U-M-B-R-E-L-L-A, who would have thought an umbrella would be a nice props to add some Sexyness!

Lastly, the final audition.

She's such a TERRIFIC dancer! She's smokin HOT! She's PREETY!

There's still more dance move in this movie. It's a great movie, if you have not watched it yet, then you should.
Trust me.

2008-12-24T00:54:00.003+08:00

Just a random POST about what my NAME really means which I thought it's really true. LOL.

You Are Dreamy and Distracted

1)You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

2)You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

3)You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

4)You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

5)You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

6)You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

7)You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

8)You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

9)You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

10)You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

11)You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

Don't you people agree??LOL

2008-12-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

Singapore Lose! Heartbreak man. Kecian drg. Haiz. & Alam shah was like....haiz...tkpe....

Yeah! today on the 21st of December 2009! I got a surprise from my BESTFrens! (that includes Nazrul & Hafidz!)

Thankz eh korang for your sacrifices of time, effort, money, energy. I really did not expect you all to make this surprise for me.
Also after Nad acting "Eh fara, aku sedih seh tk dapat celebrate birthday kau this year.."
(with the sad faces somemore!) LOL. Pantat kau.. haha..

Btw the surprise is at ECP! They cooked all the food early in the morning seh! Haiz. cam touching gitu. Then surprise dpt bunga! Then surprise dapat bende stick bear! Then surprise dpt muffin cake! Then surprise dpt scrapbook! Then surprise dpt makan sedap2!

Happy sungguh!

I love u Gals and Guyz!

This is what I received.
Missing:Muffin Cake!

The scrapbook with my face on is actually about how the surprise were made happen by the four of them! Well...Im like so touched! Im like crying lar.
Im like happy like dunno wat! lol

But this scrapbook also make me feel bad because I feel guilty seeing them sacrifice a lot for me! Sorry guys!
Tpi tkpe korang semua ikhlas kn? klu ikhlas tkpe! hehe

N dorang mcm tahu je color merah "i Loike!"
hehe

The color must be Nadz idea...coz dunno...I have a strong feeling...!
So tell me am i Right or Wrong??!

Thank you again!

MuackX!!

2008-12-20T23:00:00.001+08:00

U never realize how important someone is to your life, until you lose them.

I said things that I really wanted to say all this while but ended up regretting it.

2008-12-19T03:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I love sometimes I hate. These are the things I cant tolerate.
When things are going good, then times are great.
But when things are bad, I really wanna break your face.
Leave this place.

Every time I thought we were done but we get right back.
Its things like that got me all confused and I don’t like the fact.

(Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it go away.)

2008-12-18T00:42:00.004+08:00

Just like view MIZA blog!!! Geram! hehe

WahLau...! Kau amek gambarku tanpa izin ku...Letak besar2 lak gambar aku kat blog kau! Ni mesti amek dari friendster tau...save image..hmmph...tpi takpe...kali ni aku okey sebab nasib kau pandai amek gambar yg lawah dan cute aku! hehehehhe....So thanks Miza for that birthday wished. Sayang kau bangat!

Okay let's start with the bad news first. I wonder why when everything just started to be the way I really wanted it to be, there will always have things that bring my perfect moment down. Yeah and i really wonder why. Ynow it is just too complicated. I could not express it in here. But thankfully I know that there's someone who feel exactly the way I felt. At least,I know that I'm not alone feeling in this way. Hopefully I can pull it through again. If i can't find someone that is wise enough to advise me, i will just pray to GOD and ask for his patience and guide me through my complicated and twisted problems that I faced with now. Insyaallah.

On the bright side, I guess, life is fair afterall! Even when I am on the lowest point of my life today, there's this one good news for me to share with.

I received missed call and I could not called back because of my hp low batt. So Luckily my Nadiah was there. I borrow her Hp and called them back.
They told me that they are from MDIS building and asked me whether I'm looking for a part time job. I say YES i'm looking for a job. However I was shocked at first because I didn't remember applying any job because I have an attachment next year. Then I recall back that yes I did took a short survey at orchard area on Tuesday.
They asked my age and where I school. & they emphasize whether im in year 2 or year 3.
They told me to come down for an interview at 3pm, today(thursday) at MDIS building. Eunos MRT, 5 mins walk to reach. Dress code: Formal wear. Furthermore they gave me some additioonal juicy info that made me tempted over this opportunity. They told me that the salary is at the range of $800-$1k per month. I know that it's not much. However it's way much better than my attachment salary!

So yes I'm going to sieze the opprtuinity!

Albert Einstein:
In the middle of every difficulty lies opportunity.

N not forgeting about NADIAH. If it's has not been for her hp, I would not have this great news and opportunity knocking my life. So yes for token of appreciation, I asked them if they mind me bringing my friend, same age, same institiuition. They say of course they would not mind!

So Nadiah..

kau nak cari kerja kn? Ni aku dah dapatkn peluang utk kau. Well ur my lucky star. N aku pun lucky star kau. Jgn lupe! hehehhe

So im giving it a shot today! Wish me Luck and hopefully that work tk merepek okay!!

MuacXz!

2008-12-17T01:05:00.004+08:00

I'm Sorry...........

I don't even know why I'm apologizing.
If you could cut my heart open and feel/see how i felt, I would really be happy. The feeling I felt now is really unexplainable. No words from a dictionary could define my feeling.
It's not because I'm not opening up to people about my problems. Maybe I do not know where to start from.

I need someone wiser to advise me.

Someone....anyone?

Please....

2008-12-16T23:36:00.001+08:00

16 December 1989 the day I was born to this world.

First of all, I would like to thanks whoever that had wished me.

1. To my family! They rushed to my room exactly 12am just to wish me. Mom apologise because cannot celebrate it.
~I LOVE YOU MOM!

2. Nad and Nadz wished me through SMS. Thankz! They SMS me saying apologies because unable to celebrate with me due to some reasons.
~It's ok......

3. My Boyfriend called me....& Also wished me on the phone...exactly at 12am too! & he also apologise because he can't calebrate with me the whole day because of his work & money constriant.
~It's Ok dear..... sun was enough for me.

4. Fadel wished me Too!
While talking to BoyF.. I swtiched ON my lappy to check "Twilight" movie and automatically signed in MSN. Guess wat? Fadel MSN me and wished me Happy Birthday! Well Im Surprise, because he's like the last person I could expect to wish me. LOL
~Thank you Fadel! Very Sweet of you!

5. Thank you HANWEI! For calling me in the middle of the night while I'm talking to my BoyF! To just wished me "Happy Birthday" in malay! LOL
~So touching! *wink

6. Thank you Miza! For chating with me in MSN and wishing me too!
~Muax!

& Lastly Geng! Geng! Geng!
Guess who make me Smile. Laugh. Shock at the same time?
7. It's KHAI.

Let me tell you why.....

First of all.....he sent me this MMS to my hp. But obviously because my hp spoilt, I have to use this NOKIA 3310. Classic habis babe! LOL. So yah I can't recieve his MMS because I have to do it manually. Check online.

(Sory Khai if you take your time to write it to me in SMS)

So i log in to the link given with the username and password, & i received this...

Writen by KHAI..

Hey ya! Happy birthday my dear.. I prepared this small poem for u quite some time ago to reminiscene how I dulu sms u.. Btw yang dalam bracket is ( Just to rhyme =P).. Haha and this sms renders you to a free lunch whenver wherever.. Haha bile dah pay eh! Lol.. Happy Birthday once again.. =)

Yes Khai!

I'm touched when I read this also touched when you remembered it too. However the thing is that made me shocked is that you "Khai" have gotten my age all wrong dude. I'm like shocked like dunno what. LMAO!

I'm jus 19 lar & the funny thing is he did not admit it that he don't know...

Khai say that it's for the folowing year too.
& I was like "Khai, i'm not 21 next year"
Khai still dun want admit you kno! LOL

Then I was like asking him, he dunno my age...n he say he kinda forgotten it. I'm not angry at you though! But I really appreciate it your thoughts and initiative. I wonder why you are still SINGLE! hmmph! LOL!

BTW The free treat that you say earlier for my birthday can be consider a compensate for your mistake. So! remember the free treat k KHAI.

& lastly thank you for taking your time to make this poem. I'm really impressed! 2-3 weeks, come on that LONG???

hehehehehe.......

To cut it short People, this year there's no celebration going on for me. However greatest warm gratitude to you guys and gals for making it great by just wishing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to me!

MUACXZ!

Additional. Continuation....

8) Thank you Khai(not the above khai) for the birthday wished!

9) Thank you Wan(naz cousin) for wishing my birthday too!
10) Thank you Jazni for the SMS birthday song for me too!
11) Thank you Isa for the birthday wished too!
12) Thank you Nana for the birthday wished too!
13) Thank you Danz for the wished too!
14) Thank you Weena for the birthday wished too!
15) Yeah! thank you FAIZAL RP for the birthday wished too!
16) Thank you FIANA for the birthday wished too!

Last but not least tks to Mum from Canada for your wished!

& I know the list will still be going n going on.....

2008-12-14T12:10:00.003+08:00

Happy 9th Month Anniversary.

Time past so fast till i didn't even realize that it's been this long.

Up and Down.
Smile and Tears.
Give and Take.
Love and Hatred.
Forgive and Forget.

Thank for the Anniversary outing cum Birthday too!

p/s: Miza! there aku dah upload! hehe..

2008-12-05T10:12:00.003+08:00

Tagged by JAJA

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- Everyone Does have Secrets in them..& Im hell ya Good at keeping them..
*wink

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
- Nah...It's a BIG no no for me for falling in love with someone younger....but you nvr know ya..
In any case mature matured is much preferable for me!

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Oh wells, I will wait...watever it is fate will do it course,,,

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Share with my Love ones...Buy everything that I ever wants.. On the other hand I would say..I have to stop dreaming bout this...

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- Haha,,,best Frens?? I love them...but NO WAY i'm going to fall in love with them..! Come on. I'm straight..JALAN TERUS K ppl!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Without any doubts...it's a precious gift to ask for....."to be loved by someone whom you love with all ur heart"

7. How do you define love?
- Love is about accepting each other flaws without changing anything..love is all about give and take and never expect anything in return.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Sedih lah mula2...but i know the feelings will slowly fade away...alar...ramai agi kat luar...

9. Is there anythink that makes you extremely happy?
- A new day that begins on 4th December.

10. What makes you sad?
-When people does not accept the way i am...

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- 29? happily married with the one i love..and with kids...n maybe makin jambu agakne...haha

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- You people shuld noe who you are..*winks

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
- Something that won't make the person who i am is regarded the most impt thing in my life! tk paham tkpe...

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Married but poor. Coz....having money can solve a lot of things but it cannot guarantee happiness for individual...

15. What is your favourite colour?
- RED, BLack, White

16. If you fall in love with two person simultineously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
- Tough one huh....hmm i dunno...i cant possibly cut myself half rite...(pray to god for guidance)
*thks eh JAJA..hehe

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Suprislingly, I always forgive,, always...HOWEVER, I cant possibly forget it...it jus remain there...like a scar..

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- Like eh? like only rite?? I jus wanna say thanks for being there...

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
- Friends..Lovers...Both are important...n dun ever ask me to compromise on this.. Period!

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
- Well, i dun believe it before....but Now...i do believe in true love...

5 people to do this survey:
- Zilah, Nana, Siti, Azee, Nadiah

2008-12-01T16:01:00.005+08:00

......Ijust feel like shutting myself away from the time being.......
...I just need to think...
...I just need to be patience...
...I just need my friends now...
badly

Sometimes I wonder how...

Sometimes I wonder why...

Sometimes I wonder when...

& sometimes I wonder it is worth it?

& I just wondering whether whatever decisions I made is correct?

P/S: quite nice huh my drawing.