♥When Nothing Else MatterS♥

What am i living for?

31 December 2008

~8 more hours to go!

Happy New Year to all my love ones!
May you enjoy your day today.
Have Fun!

Happy New Year!

~Hasta la vista 2008!

Welcome 2009!

29 December 2008

New year celebrations anyone?

Well what I'm looking forward for this year new year celebrations is to just chill with my love ones. Like just people that we love and care.
Furthermore, I'm in a Big No-No type of feeling for a grand counting down celebration this year.
I could imagine how hard it is to go back home on new year days' if I were to celebrate it outside.Confirm jam and stuff like that.. Leceh to the max.

Transportation?? Anyone willing to fetch me home? I don't think so....

Well for sure I'm not going to celebrate at home like last year. I wanna have something different this year but still relax celebration in a way.
*boggling my mind now

P/s: Nad shall we celebrate it at your house?? Shall we?? *Pity face

28 December 2008

2:06AM

Through thick and thin,
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we are suppose to give up
My problems are yours, and yours are mine

Labels: But it dont matter no

27 December 2008

The power of Media; the internet. Guess what after a day of my entry about this so called unfortunate experiences about the Police Force. There is an article on the Straits Times about the same issues about what I post. Well could big purely coincidence.

But a big time Coincidence I must say...

....................

Yesterday I tagged along with dearest Nadz and Dilla to Toh Guan to get her phone fixed and went for L-E-P-A-K-Z session with dearest GFz.
Somewhere out there.
Had a lot of fun though despite the chaotic argument that happened the day before. Had some girls talk and revealing our MOST embarrassing moment which I think I don't dare to share it here. (orang tertentu je leh tahu kn kn! hehe)

For now let me just say "Let the pictures do its talking"

.LepakzSessionAgainSoon.

26 December 2008

Here's a post which I think is not going to be agree by much. But who cares, i'm just posting it because this really happened to me.

Christmas, understandable people go party to celebrate even spent their time chilling somewhere. But this ignorant and inconsiderate Indian youths maybe young adult (no offenses, not being a racist here) chose to spend their free time chilling under my void deck at 12am-2am. Just imagine, with them having too much liquor, got high and wasted, resulted in a lot of noises, shouting, laughing, cursing.

To me it doesn't matter much but to my family who have to work the following day can't go to sleep. At least have some consideration to keep their high, complicated voices in a minimum volume.

That's the first thing that i'm unhappy about but that's not the bottom line. Ynow I chose to call my so called neighborhood police (not going to state which area but ppl who know me should know which I'm refering to) to check on them because I thought that the neighborhood police would come to my rescue; trusted them. I thought they would asked this ignorant Indian adults to like go somewhere else. However I was wronged.

I waited like 15mins for them to reach my block. ComeOn! (even a robbery would have run away very far by this 15mins)
Upon reaching to my block, they (man& lady) went out of their comfort zone (car), walked like maner nye macho, to the place where this Indian adults sitting and chatting loudly. Not even for 1 minute the police walked away just like that.

Wow just imagine they took about 10-15 mins then upon reaching just like that.
(A huge dissapointment!! Because I was so ready to laugh at this ignorant civilians!! *sob)
Furthermore, the great part is after the police went off, the noises is still there. Makin teruk. Damn!
Fu**er untill 2am ynow! Like no point trusting the police to keep our neighbourhood safe and sound. Like real! No wonder this past few months tak nampak pun police petrol. Ape entah dorang buat..?

BUAT BODOH..hehe

"The mission of the Singapore Police Force is to uphold the law, maintain order and keep the peace in the Republic of Singapore."

Betul ke??

I let u people decide...nyeyeyehehe

Labels: No offence...

24 December 2008

Well I just watch this "Make it Happen" movie online ( http://www.watch-movies.net/movies/make_it_happen/ ), and I bet ya you too gonna ENJOY this movie.
This movie is for anyone who love dance and it might be about dance and if that is not your thang, the underlying message is to just follow your dreams and make them happen, what ever they may be, or what ever it takes.
Simply irresistible. I gave it a 5/5 movie and I'm never wrong about this kind of thang!

"Make it Happen"
Below is some glimpse of what you gonna see. (Trailer)

& I also posting up some dance move that I like in this show!

M-asculine but yet F-eminine!

U-M-B-R-E-L-L-A, who would have thought an umbrella would be a nice props to add some Sexyness!

Lastly, the final audition.

She's such a TERRIFIC dancer! She's smokin HOT! She's PREETY!

There's still more dance move in this movie. It's a great movie, if you have not watched it yet, then you should.
Trust me.

Just a random POST about what my NAME really means which I thought it's really true. LOL.

You Are Dreamy and Distracted

1)You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

2)You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

3)You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

4)You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

5)You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

6)You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

7)You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

8)You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

9)You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

10)You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

11)You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

Don't you people agree??LOL

21 December 2008

Singapore Lose! Heartbreak man. Kecian drg. Haiz. & Alam shah was like....haiz...tkpe....

Yeah! today on the 21st of December 2009! I got a surprise from my BESTFrens! (that includes Nazrul & Hafidz!)

Thankz eh korang for your sacrifices of time, effort, money, energy. I really did not expect you all to make this surprise for me.
Also after Nad acting "Eh fara, aku sedih seh tk dapat celebrate birthday kau this year.."
(with the sad faces somemore!) LOL. Pantat kau.. haha..

Btw the surprise is at ECP! They cooked all the food early in the morning seh! Haiz. cam touching gitu. Then surprise dpt bunga! Then surprise dapat bende stick bear! Then surprise dpt muffin cake! Then surprise dpt scrapbook! Then surprise dpt makan sedap2!

Happy sungguh!

I love u Gals and Guyz!

This is what I received.
Missing:Muffin Cake!

The scrapbook with my face on is actually about how the surprise were made happen by the four of them! Well...Im like so touched! Im like crying lar.
Im like happy like dunno wat! lol

But this scrapbook also make me feel bad because I feel guilty seeing them sacrifice a lot for me! Sorry guys!
Tpi tkpe korang semua ikhlas kn? klu ikhlas tkpe! hehe

N dorang mcm tahu je color merah "i Loike!"
hehe

The color must be Nadz idea...coz dunno...I have a strong feeling...!
So tell me am i Right or Wrong??!

Thank you again!

MuackX!!

20 December 2008

U never realize how important someone is to your life, until you lose them.

I said things that I really wanted to say all this while but ended up regretting it.

19 December 2008

Sometimes I love sometimes I hate. These are the things I cant tolerate.
When things are going good, then times are great.
But when things are bad, I really wanna break your face.
Leave this place.

Every time I thought we were done but we get right back.
Its things like that got me all confused and I don’t like the fact.

(Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it go away.)

Labels: It feels so wrong.

18 December 2008

Just like view MIZA blog!!! Geram! hehe

WahLau...! Kau amek gambarku tanpa izin ku...Letak besar2 lak gambar aku kat blog kau! Ni mesti amek dari friendster tau...save image..hmmph...tpi takpe...kali ni aku okey sebab nasib kau pandai amek gambar yg lawah dan cute aku! hehehehhe....So thanks Miza for that birthday wished. Sayang kau bangat!

Okay let's start with the bad news first. I wonder why when everything just started to be the way I really wanted it to be, there will always have things that bring my perfect moment down. Yeah and i really wonder why. Ynow it is just too complicated. I could not express it in here. But thankfully I know that there's someone who feel exactly the way I felt. At least,I know that I'm not alone feeling in this way. Hopefully I can pull it through again. If i can't find someone that is wise enough to advise me, i will just pray to GOD and ask for his patience and guide me through my complicated and twisted problems that I faced with now. Insyaallah.

On the bright side, I guess, life is fair afterall! Even when I am on the lowest point of my life today, there's this one good news for me to share with.

I received missed call and I could not called back because of my hp low batt. So Luckily my Nadiah was there. I borrow her Hp and called them back.
They told me that they are from MDIS building and asked me whether I'm looking for a part time job. I say YES i'm looking for a job. However I was shocked at first because I didn't remember applying any job because I have an attachment next year. Then I recall back that yes I did took a short survey at orchard area on Tuesday.
They asked my age and where I school. & they emphasize whether im in year 2 or year 3.
They told me to come down for an interview at 3pm, today(thursday) at MDIS building. Eunos MRT, 5 mins walk to reach. Dress code: Formal wear. Furthermore they gave me some additioonal juicy info that made me tempted over this opportunity. They told me that the salary is at the range of $800-$1k per month. I know that it's not much. However it's way much better than my attachment salary!

So yes I'm going to sieze the opprtuinity!

Albert Einstein:
In the middle of every difficulty lies opportunity.

N not forgeting about NADIAH. If it's has not been for her hp, I would not have this great news and opportunity knocking my life. So yes for token of appreciation, I asked them if they mind me bringing my friend, same age, same institiuition. They say of course they would not mind!

So Nadiah..

kau nak cari kerja kn? Ni aku dah dapatkn peluang utk kau. Well ur my lucky star. N aku pun lucky star kau. Jgn lupe! hehehhe

So im giving it a shot today! Wish me Luck and hopefully that work tk merepek okay!!

MuacXz!

17 December 2008

I'm Sorry...........

I don't even know why I'm apologizing.
If you could cut my heart open and feel/see how i felt, I would really be happy. The feeling I felt now is really unexplainable. No words from a dictionary could define my feeling.
It's not because I'm not opening up to people about my problems. Maybe I do not know where to start from.

I need someone wiser to advise me.

Someone....anyone?

Please....

16 December 2008

16 December 1989 the day I was born to this world.

First of all, I would like to thanks whoever that had wished me.

1. To my family! They rushed to my room exactly 12am just to wish me. Mom apologise because cannot celebrate it.
~I LOVE YOU MOM!

2. Nad and Nadz wished me through SMS. Thankz! They SMS me saying apologies because unable to celebrate with me due to some reasons.
~It's ok......

3. My Boyfriend called me....& Also wished me on the phone...exactly at 12am too! & he also apologise because he can't calebrate with me the whole day because of his work & money constriant.
~It's Ok dear..... sun was enough for me.

4. Fadel wished me Too!
While talking to BoyF.. I swtiched ON my lappy to check "Twilight" movie and automatically signed in MSN. Guess wat? Fadel MSN me and wished me Happy Birthday! Well Im Surprise, because he's like the last person I could expect to wish me. LOL
~Thank you Fadel! Very Sweet of you!

5. Thank you HANWEI! For calling me in the middle of the night while I'm talking to my BoyF! To just wished me "Happy Birthday" in malay! LOL
~So touching! *wink

6. Thank you Miza! For chating with me in MSN and wishing me too!
~Muax!

& Lastly Geng! Geng! Geng!
Guess who make me Smile. Laugh. Shock at the same time?
7. It's KHAI.

Let me tell you why.....

First of all.....he sent me this MMS to my hp. But obviously because my hp spoilt, I have to use this NOKIA 3310. Classic habis babe! LOL. So yah I can't recieve his MMS because I have to do it manually. Check online.

(Sory Khai if you take your time to write it to me in SMS)

So i log in to the link given with the username and password, & i received this...

Writen by KHAI..

Hey ya! Happy birthday my dear.. I prepared this small poem for u quite some time ago to reminiscene how I dulu sms u.. Btw yang dalam bracket is ( Just to rhyme =P).. Haha and this sms renders you to a free lunch whenver wherever.. Haha bile dah pay eh! Lol.. Happy Birthday once again.. =)

Yes Khai!

I'm touched when I read this also touched when you remembered it too. However the thing is that made me shocked is that you "Khai" have gotten my age all wrong dude. I'm like shocked like dunno what. LMAO!

I'm jus 19 lar & the funny thing is he did not admit it that he don't know...

Khai say that it's for the folowing year too.
& I was like "Khai, i'm not 21 next year"
Khai still dun want admit you kno! LOL

Then I was like asking him, he dunno my age...n he say he kinda forgotten it. I'm not angry at you though! But I really appreciate it your thoughts and initiative. I wonder why you are still SINGLE! hmmph! LOL!

BTW The free treat that you say earlier for my birthday can be consider a compensate for your mistake. So! remember the free treat k KHAI.

& lastly thank you for taking your time to make this poem. I'm really impressed! 2-3 weeks, come on that LONG???

hehehehehe.......

To cut it short People, this year there's no celebration going on for me. However greatest warm gratitude to you guys and gals for making it great by just wishing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to me!

MUACXZ!

Additional. Continuation....

8) Thank you Khai(not the above khai) for the birthday wished!

9) Thank you Wan(naz cousin) for wishing my birthday too!
10) Thank you Jazni for the SMS birthday song for me too!
11) Thank you Isa for the birthday wished too!
12) Thank you Nana for the birthday wished too!
13) Thank you Danz for the wished too!
14) Thank you Weena for the birthday wished too!
15) Yeah! thank you FAIZAL RP for the birthday wished too!
16) Thank you FIANA for the birthday wished too!

Last but not least tks to Mum from Canada for your wished!

& I know the list will still be going n going on.....

14 December 2008

Happy 9th Month Anniversary.

Time past so fast till i didn't even realize that it's been this long.

Up and Down.
Smile and Tears.
Give and Take.
Love and Hatred.
Forgive and Forget.

Thank for the Anniversary outing cum Birthday too!

p/s: Miza! there aku dah upload! hehe..

05 December 2008

Tagged by JAJA

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- Everyone Does have Secrets in them..& Im hell ya Good at keeping them..
*wink

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
- Nah...It's a BIG no no for me for falling in love with someone younger....but you nvr know ya..
In any case mature matured is much preferable for me!

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Oh wells, I will wait...watever it is fate will do it course,,,

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Share with my Love ones...Buy everything that I ever wants.. On the other hand I would say..I have to stop dreaming bout this...

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- Haha,,,best Frens?? I love them...but NO WAY i'm going to fall in love with them..! Come on. I'm straight..JALAN TERUS K ppl!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Without any doubts...it's a precious gift to ask for....."to be loved by someone whom you love with all ur heart"

7. How do you define love?
- Love is about accepting each other flaws without changing anything..love is all about give and take and never expect anything in return.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Sedih lah mula2...but i know the feelings will slowly fade away...alar...ramai agi kat luar...

9. Is there anythink that makes you extremely happy?
- A new day that begins on 4th December.

10. What makes you sad?
-When people does not accept the way i am...

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- 29? happily married with the one i love..and with kids...n maybe makin jambu agakne...haha

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- You people shuld noe who you are..*winks

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
- Something that won't make the person who i am is regarded the most impt thing in my life! tk paham tkpe...

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Married but poor. Coz....having money can solve a lot of things but it cannot guarantee happiness for individual...

15. What is your favourite colour?
- RED, BLack, White

16. If you fall in love with two person simultineously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
- Tough one huh....hmm i dunno...i cant possibly cut myself half rite...(pray to god for guidance)
*thks eh JAJA..hehe

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Suprislingly, I always forgive,, always...HOWEVER, I cant possibly forget it...it jus remain there...like a scar..

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- Like eh? like only rite?? I jus wanna say thanks for being there...

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends, which will you choose?
- Friends..Lovers...Both are important...n dun ever ask me to compromise on this.. Period!

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
- Well, i dun believe it before....but Now...i do believe in true love...

5 people to do this survey:
- Zilah, Nana, Siti, Azee, Nadiah

01 December 2008

......Ijust feel like shutting myself away from the time being.......
...I just need to think...
...I just need to be patience...
...I just need my friends now...
badly

Sometimes I wonder how...

Sometimes I wonder why...

Sometimes I wonder when...

& sometimes I wonder it is worth it?

& I just wondering whether whatever decisions I made is correct?

P/S: quite nice huh my drawing.