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......  Im in school now, I really I can't really stop worrying about how I'm going to purchase a new lappy because my previous lappy died on me recently. My third year is so critical right now. Without a lappy for one day, I would really be on the losing end. I just need someone who have a credit card. Sape seh??!!! Anyone? Die! Die! How?? |
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It's been long since I updated. First of all, to start on a happier note, schools reopens on 20th April 2009. I was fortunate to see some familiar faces, cool classmates and also Facilitators who taught me before except for PR&M module. Schools ended super duper fast.I like however, I have to fast in school because I don't have enough time to have my own lunch at my own pace. Pathetic. But this can be my free diet plan. Secondly, I am really not doing well in relationship wise now. No, we did not end up in another huge argument like before. Yup, thankfully, we did not argue that much. His behaving this past few days. His behaving really. But there's a huge sense of fear deep in my heart which I seriously doubting and I keep denying. No, I didn't fall for another guy. No, I didn't guilty. No, I didn't feel regret at all. No, I didn't intend to leave him. No, I didn't lost hope on him. No, I didn't hate him. No, I do love him. No, I do miss him. But; Yes, I couldn't.............. P/S: Don't ever try to finish of that line, I bet you it is not the right one. |
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.... Too much anger, jealousy will lead you losing me anytime sooner. Too much chance, patience will lead me in giving up to this. Too much pain and suffering will lead our relationship nowhere. Things won't go back to the way it was after this. I'm not going to sit around and do nothing again.Even if I'm back together again with you,I'm going to make sure you know what trust and faith is all about. It's raining now. I'm loving the weather now. I couldn't sleep at all and luckily this weather made me feel as in I'm not alone.  Ynow like I'm really down right now and it rained as if it felt that I'm feeling down that's why it rained to accompany me too. Ok..it made sense right? It does. Ok.  Tomorrow will be a better day perhaps. Rain + Light = Rainbows??? |
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.... (Part1) An event today will make it clear to you that everything in your life is transient -- nothing can last forever. Permanence just doesn't exist -- even the tallest mountains are slowly crumbling down. So you have to stop thinking that what you have right now is going to last forever. Remind yourself that the only thing you can count on is change. Rather than try to preserve what you love right now, just enjoy it. Value it and treat it respectfully instead of trying to keep it exactly the way you want it to be. Does this Smell Trouble Coming My Way? (Part 2) When to Zoo today with Dearest GF's and Friend and some anak2 sape punya entah. Hehehe. Shall upload pics very Soon! (NAD please upload to me through friendster? TYVM!) |
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..... ~I couldn't follow my family for my late grandad funeral because of certain reasons that got to do with my passport and I can't explain it because I think I will be misunderstood. So NO explanation to be done here. Disappointing, my family haven't got back from JB. You guys must be thinking that i'm jumping up and down since I can have the whole entire house for my own good. But hell NO. Yeah since they are gone, I did do the whole chores in the house at my own pace since I don't like to be force when I'm doing something. (Like I have to be ikhlas and all. hahaha) I did cook for my own lunch. No dinner. Watching TV without having any argument with siblings over the remote is so GOOD. However, I'm left alone and I'm getting worried by then. I mean, I can't reach my sis, HP flat. My bro neither answer my call nor reply my SMS. The rest of the members using Ppd so there's chop2 no connection there. I'm worried. Lastly, I meet up with dearest NAD! Catch ups was done! I already missing my dearest GF's Tomorrow lepakz at your house again, NAD? |
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After meeting my dearest bf today, I was left alone at my house because I can't go to Johor with my family. I was ALONE and I can't sleep. Basically, I was scared. Thus Late in the morning, I met my friend, Fadel, out of boredom. Surprisingly, he came down. Biaserla ada transportation. A lot of catch ups was done with him for hours under my block. Lastly, to my dearest GF, meet me up soon. Friday can? |
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.... Today I was crashed. I was blamed, accused and cursed by someone who is an elder and I respected, that is my father. "Did i deserve all this to be thrown at me?" My Grandad(father side) is at the Johor hospital now. He was in a critical condition and was admitted there. Can I look at him tomorrow? Every time when I'm faced with death or someone who is in a critical condition it kept me think the worst. I can't stop crying, I felt helpless and breathless. Thinking of 'Death', does makes me scare. However thinking of 'time that is left' makes me even more scare. I'm going to JB tomorrow. Not sure when I'm coming back. Bye. |
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 Labour Day was celebrated by visiting my Grandma at Yishun. (Miza I lupe nak msg lar. I was at yishun today. :(...) Upon reaching there, I was happy. I just don't know why. It feels as though reuniting again with everyone. Seeing the smile on my Nenek & Atuk faces was indeed a pleasure for me. My Atuk always feed me well. Atuk kept asking me to eat. But luckily not as much as in the past maybe because he did notice that I put on weight. LOL The best part is that I got to see my little cousins whom I didn't get to see for a long time. I took their pictures the most because they are such a natural talent for taking pics. Maybe because everytime I met them I will ask them to take picz with me. LOL The Siblings (missing elder bro, Indra.)  The Sister, Nabilah.  Cheeky Iwan (twins)  Mentel Ifan (twins)  Beautiful, talented Ifa.She just turning 2 years old.   The other Cousin. Beautiful Mahdia Marsya. My ever fav picz for today. ;) |
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 (credits to N.A.D) .... Today I went out with my dearest GF!! Nadzira, Nadiah, and Ayu! I was reluctant to go at first due to the weather and mood. But changed my mind since Nadz seems to be diasappointed. But to look on the bright side, I really do had a great time with them. Firstly, we went for a karaoke session at Cash Studio. Secondly, we went for dinner at Far East and met Baqir, Alyias, & entah sape... We left quickly right after that I headed to Esplanade just because Jaz told us that there will be fireworks at the Singapore Flyers. Banyak nye fireworks. pun tkde except for the lights there. Tsk. hehe. But the saddest part is that my dearest Ayu got caught littering their ciggrates butts. =( $300+$300=$600. wow. |
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 Finally today I managed to wake up early just to head to school to submit a form to OSC. Just imagine going to school, A-L-O-N-E! Upon reaching, I saw students wearing RP graduation uniforms and I was smiling to myself. Thinking, when it will be my turn? Another 1 year for me!! Not to forget!! -> Woodlands is so damn hot even in the morning. (If you reading this Acitz: Can u stand the heat there??) Sigh.. |
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 Didn't slept the night before because I was talking with Miza on the phone till morning 5am. Luckily she called because at the same time I was complaining to my GFs that I was bored and she was there to accompany me due to my insomnia. We did have a lot of Juicy Stuffs to talk about. Never ending topics to talk about huh Miza? *Macam paham lar ko! Therefore due to not having enough sleep, I woke up very late for the day and forgotten my plans to head to school to settle some stuff. I will postpone it tomorrow then and meeting him. Gosh I miss him. |
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.... I'm very excited for today post because coincidentally I met again my two guys friends whom I never seen for a very long long time. This two friend of my is none other than BaQir (JDL) and Nizam (TWPS).  And BaQir is Nadz friend and Nizam happened to be Baqir friend.What a SMALL world indeed.  As usual we 4 girls, Nadz, Ayu, Nad and myself with 3 guys Baqir, Nizam, Iswandy, headed to our usual Lepak place at BP. I was indeed bored to death because these a barrier between us girls and guys. Cam tk kenal gitu. Padahal2. hehe But as time goes on we gradually have a bit of laughters and fun here and there.  And Lastly, my favorite pic of the Night is........ with Nad and Baqir. His never ending Rockstar Trademark *rolling my eyes.  |
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 ... It rained today. & yes, I L-O-V-E the rain. I don't care if it spoils my day out plan with him today. I just enjoy it by sitting at home, drinking a cup of hot chocolate and watch some DVD with my love ones. ..... Seeing your smile, wash my pain away. |
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 .........It didn't even last for 4 hours today. & yet I had been misunderstood again by my words and actions. |
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Today 1st April 2009 marked as the "Happy Fool Day" & several of people tried to play prank on me which I think was pretty much hilarious to talk about and to say so called tak menjadi... ;-) So far on my entire life, I only really been taken in fool on April Fool Day by my dearest friend, Nadzira Rabu! I remembered it was on the year 2003 when I was in Sec 2. I was rushing to school because I woke up late and I didn't want to be considered as the late comers for that day. Upon reaching my school, I received a SMS from her saying that, "she angry with me for talking behind her back, saying bad stuff about her...blah blah...blah...(I forgot)" and being the usual "kanchong" girl, i didn't scroll down the message entirely and I quickly reply her like mati2 defending myself. She then asked me to read the message carefully till the end and there I realised I had been fooled by this noty little imp! LOL. Nice one. & For those who failed to fool me, Just have to wait till next year. |
