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What am i living for?

28 April 2010

The worst thing I have done after finishing school is having this full time job.

Well, i didnt blame the company. Just that the pressure, perfection, demanding, peers, puntuality, comitment, restriction, all this plays a part for me to really just walk off. But the only things holding me back is just that money issues.

Everytime when I comfort to peple regarding this, I feel as though they look at me like I'm complaining. But they don't know what I'm going through in work everyday. Im mentally exhausted. I even have a slight breakdown which luckily I'm able to pull myself together.

Mentally exhausted till my mind went completely blank. By the time I reach home, i will sleep. the next day, is another day, another call, another sick in the mind thing.

My decision is up. I dun have the heart to work there.
But just that I respect the company and my team leader and the money issue.

Walking away.

14 January 2010

My heart beat faster, faster than ever yesterday.

To see him again, his bike, the way he went down his bike,

his hair after wearing his helmet, his eye contact,

his smile, his greeting,

the handshake, the talking,

his teasing, his phisilophy of life....

all of it....

Never did it change,

Never....

After weeks, I came to an understanding of what you are actually doing.

For now, i am praying just for you.

Praying that you will one day eventually find what your hearts really wants because your happiness is mine too. Insyaallah.

Lets not talk about us, lets not talk about love,

lets not talk about misses who more, lets not talk about forgeting each other,

lets not talk about closeness.

For now, I just want you to share your happiness,

I just want you to be happy

because seeing you finding your true happiness in life

is all I that i ever pray of since the first day

i met and knew you.

13 January 2010

I came across this arrticle and it really sent chills down to my spine..

Diriwayatkan dari Anas ra. :

Nabi Muhammad Saw pernah bersabda, “ketika manusia berbaring di dalam kuburnya dan para sahabatnya pulang, ia mendengar langkah kaki mereka."

"Dua malaikat datang kepadanya, menyuruhnya duduk dan bertanya kepadanya; apa yang pernah kau katakan tentang Muhammad Saw ? ia akan berkata: aku bersaksi bahwa Ia adalah hamba Allah dan Rasul-Nya. Kemudian akan dikatakan padanya, “lihatlah tempatmu di neraka, Allah telah menukarnya dengan dengan sebuah tempat di surga karena itu”. Kemudian Nabi Muhammad Saw menambahkan, “orang itu akan melihat kedua tempat itu.

Tetapi orang kafir atau munafik akan berkata kepada dua malaikat itu, “aku tidak tahu, tetapi aku mengatakan apa yang dikatakan orang-orang!”. Akan dikatakan kepadanya, “kau tidak tahu tetapi kau tidak mengambil petunjuk (dengan mengikuti Al Quran)."

"Kemudian ia akan dipukuli dengan palu besi di antara dua telinga nya, ia akan menjerit dan jeritannya terdengar oleh apa pun yang ada di dekatnya, kecuali manusia dan jin.”

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Labels: ''semoga kita selalu termasuk dalam golongan manusia yang beriman.

12 January 2010

"Tak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis, andai diri tak sehebat Sulaiman. Mengapa mengharapkan teman setampan Yusof, jika kasih tak setulus Zulaikha. Tak perlu mengharapkan teman seteguh Ibrahim, andai diri tak sekuat Siti Hajar. Dan mengapa didambakan teman hidup nak Siti Khadijah, kalau diri tak sempurna Rasullullah S.A.W."

Quoted from Sadiqul Facebook cited for Quran..

I found it very meaningful and whowould have thought that he going to post this.. haha..=)

11 January 2010

A quick get-away from Friday till Monday. Far away from Singapore is what I needed badly at this moment. So a quick trip to JB to be near my mom is the best solutions I can think of.

My new house at JB.(Perling apartment.)

I was really shocked when I see my JB house. LOL. I like. Sapa2 nak tenangkn fikiran sila datang ke rumah-ku ye. A quick snap I took using my handphone.

There's still a lot of pictures to be taken but didn't manage to.

Next time yaw.

Staying in Johor is a good experience. I really love it. It's like a totally get-away from Singapore the cheapest way. LOL. I didn't think too much and I was able to sleep peacefully. However yes at times, i still do think. But for now just pray.

And the hardest part was actually going back home to Singapore. The thought of leaving my mum alone in JB was so damn sad. =(..

06 January 2010

I want so much to buy a religious book "Qadha dan Qadar".
But couldn't find one till now.

Qadha dan Qadar.

(Some reading that I have read; qouted from passage.)

Salah satunya dari rukun iman itu adalah iman kepada qadha dan qadar. Dengan demikian , bahwa mempercayai qadha dan qadar itu merupakan hati kita. Kita harus yakin dengan sepenuh hati bahwa segala sesuatu yang terjadi pada diri kita, baik yang menyenangkan maupun yang tidak menyenangkan adalah atas kehendak Allah.

Sebagai orang beriman, kita harus rela menerima segala ketentuan Allah atas diri kita. Di dalam sebuah hadits qudsi Allah berfirman yang artinya:
"Siapa yang tidak ridha dengan qadha-Ku dan qadar-Ku dan tidak sabar terhadap bencana-Ku yang aku timpakan atasnya, maka hendaklah mencari Tuhan selain Aku. (H.R.Tabrani)"

Takdir Allah merupakan iradah (kehendak) Allah. Oleh sebab itu takdir tidak selalu sesuai dengan keinginan kita. Tatkala takdir atas diri kita sesuai dengan keinginan kita, hendaklah kita beresyukur karena hal itu merupakan nikmat yang diberikan Allah kepada kita.

Ketika takdir yang kita alami tidak menyenangkan atau merupakan musibah, maka hendaklah kita terima dengan sabar dan ikhlas. Kita harus yakin, bahwa di balik musibah itu ada hikmah yang terkadang kita belum mengetahuinya.
Allah Maha Mengetahui atas apa yang diperbuatnya.

Orang yang beriman kepada qadha dan qadar, apabila mendapat keberuntungan, maka ia akan bersyukur, karena keberuntungan itu merupakan nikmat Allah yang harus disyukuri. Sebaliknya apabila terkena musibah maka ia akan sabar, karena hal tersebut merupakan ujian.

Artinya:”dan apa saja nikmat yang ada pada kamu, maka dari Allah( datangnya), dan bila ditimpa oleh kemudratan, maka hanya kepada-Nya lah kamu meminta pertolongan. ”
( QS. An-Nahl ayat 53).

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05 January 2010

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me

There are days, Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so closeAnd having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what I was tryin to

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But i'm doin it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i'm alone

Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.............

AfTteR eVeRy DarkNeSs TheRe'S a LiGhT,

& AfTeR eVeRy sToRm e SkY beCoMes BriGhT...

so DoeS eVeRy HeaRTbReaK....

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